Title: 5 Stages of Riley
Winters
Author: R.D.
Berg
Release Date: Nov 2,
2015
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He left me shattered and mentally scarred. Our
divorce should have healed those emotional wounds. It
didn't.
Nine months have passed, and I am still trying to
piece together my life that was torn to shreds. I am a shell of the person I once
was.
GRIEF -
Shrouds me in a cloak of darkness, isolates me
from family and friends, and barely leaves me treading water. The only thing
keeping me afloat is my rambunctious three-year old son,
River.
FATE -
Brings Liam Bowers into my life. He offers me
everything my ex did not - love, adoration, romance and
peace.
TROUBLE -
Slithers it's way back into my life,
threatening to kidnap the only glimpse of happiness I have
found.
My past and future are colliding, and I am afraid
the only fatality will be...me.
Alfred Lord Tennyson wrote this sweet little
poem, that even if you’re not familiar with poetry you can more than likely
recite.
“Tis Better to have loved and lost,
than never to have loved at all.”
You want to know
something?
I hate this poem. Every time I see or hear it I have
to choke back the bile that threatens to escape. It’s collection of strategically
placed words are complete and utter bullshit which people cling to in order to help
them deal with the aftermath of a shitty relationship. What this poem fails to explain
is that in the process of you loving the wrong person, you can subject yourself to a
lifetime of constant pain and misery. It neglects to advise that when you decide to let
this love go, you are left with a plethora of jagged broken pieces that you must
somehow find a way to piece back together; you have to become a seamstress and
learn how to stitch your own heart until its whole again. You are left trying to figure
out the why’s and how’s and what could have-been. Until finally one
day that fragile limb you’ve been standing on breaks … causing you to
fall into the unknown not knowing where to turn. The only thing you know is that
you are alone. Your thoughts of hopelessness and pain are the only company
you keep, and no one, not even the one’s closest to you could possibly
understand. Why, because they have chosen not to travel down the uncertain path
of love. As for me, well my case was special, I loved an asshole so much that
somewhere I unwillingly lost myself. I loved so hard that I was blinded by his
untruths, none of this love I gave was reciprocated, and I paid the major price after I
chose to disembark from his endless circle of disappointment. The price I paid was
not in any monetary value, but my debt was settled by a journey I never wanted or
asked to be a part of. This is my journey back from the dark unforgiving
tunnel we call grief; these are the 5 Stages of Riley
Winters.
RD Berg lives in the great state of Texas with her
three boys who drive her to the brink of insanity most days. She loves to read, write
and watch her two favorite shows, Game of Thrones and The Walking Dead. When
she isn’t enthralled with a novel or a gory show, you can find her in the
stands loudly cheering on her boys at their basketball and football games. She has
three strong beliefs in life; Vanilla cake and Blue Bell Homemade Vanilla ice cream
should be a major food group, Halloween should be celebrated every month, and
Harry Potter’s birthday should be a national
holiday.
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